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Mind Overload

For the past week or so my mind has been racing! It is almost like God has been teaching and showing me so many things, but yet I am unable to comprehend them all. They are huge to me and it is difficult to wrap my mind around all of them! Thus, the reason for the blog. I want to share with you all a couple things which have been on my heart lately. I would love to hear feedback, comments, and suggestions on these matters as always! I love to learn and grow so please, feel free to help me out!!

Have you ever stopped to realize HOW VAST the Milky Way Galaxy is? Composed of its BILLIONS of stars, its gorgeous beauty and INCREDIBLE depth. This is one of no one knows HOW MANY galaxies. This is IMMENSE. What about God in all of this? What about me in all of this? What about you? How do I, as small as I am in comparison to this one galaxy, the Milky Way, What do I have to do with anything?

David writes in Psalms 139 that each individual has been "knitted together" and God created each persons "innermost being". The fact is God knew me and God knew you before we were thought of, before we were created, God knew WHO we would be and what we would become. He knew and knows the choices we will make...the sins we have and will commit, the destruction we will do....yes, the list goes on....Who are we? This God who CREATED the planets, the UNIVERSE, He created me. You. Us. According to science, putting things into perspective in relationship to the galaxies, we are a speck of sand. Each individual. But yet Scripture also tells us in Matthew, that God cares SO MUCH about us and HE KNOWS SO MUCH about us, that He has counted the hairs on our heads. Seems crazy, right? It's difficult to fully comprehend...the fact is...we can not comprehend it. We can not understand the why, thy reasoning behind it all. We are human. God is not. His thinking is not ours. We are his creation, who are we ever to think we know better than Him. The Creator, compared to, us, the speck of sand...who are we to not pray about matters or seek God in everything. After all isn't that what we SHOULD be doing?

This brings me back to "why"? Grace. The undeserved kindness of God. We can not understand it, it can not be understood. How can a God love us, who after all as the Bible says, sent His son to DIE for us while we were still sinners. That is what we are, sinners, people who know nothing and are nothing without God. Hopeless individuals in need of a Savior. Thank God this Creator became our Savior...His Love is so extravagant that He lowered HIMSELF to our status, to demonstrate His love for US...and, before we committed ourselves to Him. Think about the marvelous Mystery God is...the Love He has demonstrated...

Think about You. Your size. God. God's Magnitude. Who are we to worry? What right to we have to stress? Who are we to think we don't need God? He created us. He loves us. He passionately desires to have a relationship WITH US. What are we doing to cultivate our Creator's all time purpose for us? How are we displaying our Love and affection to our Maker?

Just some thoughts...on one issue. More to come of my ramblings...but I hope these are food for thought as they have been for me.

My prayer is that you continue growing, learning, striving to do all that you desire from your walk with God. I pray that your desire for God is never quenched, but always endless.

-Krissy

Good Morning,

It is now 12:49AM on Friday, October 2nd. I have recently returned home from my Dad's memorial service in Fort Myers, Florida. I guess I should tell everyone I am back from South Korea. I made is safely and have been living at my mom's house in Lehigh for the past couple months.

Let's just say since I have returned back to the States, I have been flooded with a whirlwind of emotions. I feel as though I have left a piece of me in Korea...and I will never be the same after returning to America. I learned so much from the Eastern side of the world, and I would not trade my year over anything. It has truly been an incredible, and life-changing experience for me.

The culture shock has been quite a challenge to handle...I still do not believe I am adjusted. I am not sure that will ever come though. However, I am getting better! I no longer bow to say hello!Although I do feel weird at times NOT bowing...like I am being disrespectful or something. :)

I guess I should get everyone up to speed on life...I have finally found a church and a job! I am also getting involved with the church and I love it. I will start my new job on Monday doing social work! I am excited for the challenge, but nervous too! Just hoping God will give me the grace to carry on and do the best that I am able too only through Him.

As many of you, or all of you know at this point, my father passed away last Wednesday evening. I was in Georgia and was the last one with him as he went to be with Jesus. There were many tears, but strangely, a peace about it. It has been easier to say "see you later, Dad", than see him suffer through his battle with cancer. He was such a great man. Full of life and a fighter. He never quit, even to the day of his death. He was an encourager, #1 fan, my biggest confidant, and self-less individual. I will miss him dearly. I just need to remind myself where he is...and he is better there than here. God has given me Exodus 33:14 "The Lord replied, " My presence will go with you, and I will give you rest" as a promise during this time. I believe it, and stand on it. God has gone before me, and He has gone before you. There is no situation God will not be there to hold your hand and guide you through. God is love and a faithful father: never changing characteristics regardless of the situations in life.

Please hear my heart regarding the previous paragraph. I am writing not as one who has conquered the trusting God thing, but rather one who struggles with this, questions it, doubts it, but God is still faithful. He is still God. He is the never changing, the beginning and the end. I am writing from my weakness...that God is faithful no matter what. I am writing from my questioning and doubting, that God will still come through and will still Love you, and will always and forever continue His faithfulness towards myself and you, although I and we are not faithful. That is God. He is not human. He is.He is Never Changing: the I AM.

My prayer is that as you read this, if you find yourself in a struggle, a fight, a place of confusion, or a situation which seems hopeless, that you look to your Creator God and turn to Him. He has not left you, He never will turn His back. You must recognize His hand and His presence and His fingerprints in your life. Hold on to those moments when you have felt God in the past to carry you through your "dry" seasons when you might not feel His presence. Stay faithful. God will. Stay fervent. God is there and God does hear you. Continue in your pursuit of Him: to draw near to Him.

God Bless as you travel the road of a God-pursuer and God-lover. Stay faithful.

Kristina